About me

Hello, all! I just realized that I never really did a proper introduction post, so here it is.

My name is Zimmie. I'm nineteen years old, and I have... issues which have been variously diagnosed as PDD-NOS, NLD, clinical depression, and DPD. NLD is the only one that I feel really fits. I know that there is a lot of controversy about whether NLD is really distinct from Asperger's Syndrome or this is just diagnosis splitting, but I have one key difference: dyscalculia. I cannot do even addition and subtraction with more than two digits on paper. I got the PDD diagnosis when I was very young – a kid with high verbal skills who didn't socialize, was very physically awkward, and easily overwhelmed by noise or movement. My parents, in what would prove to be their consistent response, didn't believe the results and threw them away. The outcome was that I went through most of school with no stigma of diagnosis, but also no idea what was wrong with me. Yes, I was bullied – sometimes physically, mostly verbally – the entire time, but it didn't really get through to me until about high school. Then, things started going really badly. I was very depressed, almost failed out, and my parents withdrew me and put me into a long-distance program so that I could study at home. I graduated on time, and went to a good college. (Here, I made my first friends! And was asked out by a very nice girl. ^_^). Unfortunately, I was on medications which were very, very bad for me. Early last spring, a medication stage sent me into mania, during which I almost attempted suicide and was hospitalized. Hospitalization was, unfortunately, a traumatizing experience. I was encouraged to withdraw, and instead took medical leave. Right now, I'm living at home again, taking online courses, and hoping to be allowed back in the spring.

...That paragraph may sound whiny, but not everything is! I'm trying to find my way in the world, a world I wasn't quite shaped for, and often this results in a lot of confusion. Sometimes, though, good things happen!

I like reading, history (especially of Soviet Russia), knitting, Celtic music, curry, rabbits, my brothers and sister, and comic books.

And yes, the little avatar on the right really is what I look like, purple hair and all. I dye it.

ETA: ah yes, the psych ward diagnosed me as bipolar and borderline... But since the psych ward spent two weeks talking out of their asses, I don't give these credence. Even more since everyone I've talked to since has taken one look at the sheet and gone, "What? No!"